Word Vomit

When I look at you

I Swallow my words

Spiting out a jumbled mess

When you ask me if I'm ok

And As you envelope me in your hug

I break down in your arms

Wailing and crying

Trying to explain between sobs

You say you don't understand

Scratching at the wound on my heart

You ask me to repeat

So I start again

Only to realise I'm muttering once again

For how could my deepest thoughts

Be so easy to say

My words pent from the midnight hour

Can't form at the stroke of day

Words written in the moonlight

don't shine in the light of day

And as you rock me back and forth

Trying to ease my breath

Telling me I'm ok

I try to say the words that are in my brain

Only to realise I'm muttering once again